Time flying and fears

Well, Little Missy- oh, how this time has flown! We are down to the final days as we await your arrival. I am a mix of emotions. I am excited, and filled with anticipation of what/who you will look like, yet full of fear and anxiety as I worry about your mother and how she will fare during the delivery and post delivery. The thought of watching my baby suffering does not fill me with joy at all. I am extremely worried about her - I can only pray that God will give her a peace that transcends all understanding and that she can hold it together. She is strong, yet fragile at times. She is confident, yet anxious at times. She is a free spirit at times, yet deep and contemplative. She struggles with her emotions many days. She doesn't think I notice these things, but I do. I pray that on the day you are born that she can push her fears aside, stay focused on her goal- seeing you, and that He will protect her body and mind through it all. She will have to call upon Him and allow Him to work through her.
Will you have mommy's beautiful eyes? Or daddy's dimples? Or will you inherit Uncle Tyler's dimples? Or Pop Pop's? Will you have mommy's raucous laugh when she is really tickled? Will you be short and petite, or will there be some recessive gene that shows up and you grow to be taller than Uncle Tyler? :) Will you be a calm, contemplative spirit, or will you be spunky, loud and full of mischief? Will you inherit good eyesight, and not those of your mother's side of the family? Will you be witty (or have a sarcastic sense of humor) like your family members? Will you be musically inclined, or creative, or a good athlete? Will you love to read? Will your life be filled with abundant love and will you be taught to love your Lord with all your heart and mind?

So...as I try my utmost to let the Lord fill me with calm and peace about your arrival, I try to focus on other things.  But, Little Miss, no doubt I will be on pins and needles until you make your appearance and know that your mommy is going to be okay. After all- though I will love you immensely, I loved her first. :)