Wow..today Miss Madison is one month old. I had the pleasure of spending time with her, and her mommy, this afternoon. We took lots of pictures, though not all of them were good ones of course, we captured a few that were just darling.
This one makes me laugh. It looks like she is being mischievious and would take off if she could. LOL.
These little bloomers swallowed her. HAHAHA. They won't be fitting her for a long time.
Such a sweet face - just so innocent.
But a month? Already? Where did it go? What did I do that was all that earth shattering, or made a difference to anyone? Hmm..sometimes I think about that. I fed someone's dog, picked up someone else's paper, picked up someone else's paper and mail, cooked, cleaned, did laundry, etc. You know, just regular, mundane things. But I am learning to count it all joy. Even though it is a huge challenge.
I attended my son's race - did it make a difference to him that we were there? I hope so. Or to his friend that we came to support him as well? I hope so.
I took care of my beautiful granddaughter. Did that make a difference to her mom and dad to know she was being taken good care of those days? I hope so.
I have tried my utmost not to blow my own gasket when my husband continually drug his feet (and still is) about taking care of my car issue. Did that make a difference? Don't know. Right now it is not looking so good. Guess we will see in another week...or two. While I can appreciate the frustration over the expense that we can ill afford, or the poor timing of having to purchase another vehicle, or pay out the nose for this one to be repaired, it still does not help the immediate need for a vehicle that is driveable.
So I am still trying my utmost to not eventually blow my gasket about it. Right now the only difference it is making is I am the one inconvenienced, I feel unimportant in that he doesn't care enough to see that I have transportation, and I am frustrated that he just won't take care of the issue. Does any of this effect the better good of life? Nope. Maybe a fairy godmother will just send an answer our way....well, a girl can hope, right?
The best thing about this month was this precious little girl who entered our lives. Full of innocence and hope. Will she make a difference in this world one day? I hope so.
Will I do what I need to do to make a positive difference in her life? I sure hope so.
These past few months have been extremely stressful and we could really use a break in the debt ratio department. Hopefully something will give. However, in September I tried my best to learn to 'count it all joy.' So..trials prevailed, and I tried very hard to not fret or complain (and some days I confess I failed miserably). Satan reared his ugly head and tried his best to break me, but I kept steady in the hope of the Lord, and the faith in Him. I have to just keep remembering He is in control, and He will provide. I guess it is the "in His time" part that most of us struggle with. But...I am keeping the faith that He has this car thing all taken care of, I just have to be patient and persevere.
On the upside, I am facing only one more doctor/hospital bill to finish paying off (1/15) and that is great. Then it will be tackling the other four debts at the beginning of the year, and, Lord willing, deal with student loans after that. Staying focused and trying to count it all joy can be a real challenge, and counting it all joy can be even harder. :)
For now, I just look at that sweet little face and thank God for sending her to us, in His time, and that she is a joy to count for certain. Did that make a difference in our lives? You bet your sweet bippy, it did.
